"How much longer can you do this to yourself? Your life is literally passing you by!" - Eric to Benny, Benny & Joon

No classes today dahil kay bagyong Frank. Pero hindi naman umulan. Hahaha. Tas tomorrow Manila Day so classes are still suspended. Hello, long weekend! :D

Last night, Jay and I were talking and we decided to make a love calendar. He was actually the one who came up with the idea. Basically, we would think of something we could do together each month to celebrate our love :) Tis like our very own list of "holidays" per month :D Here's what we've thought of so far. It's in random order because everything's still tentative XP

Spoil The Crave Day, Cerealicious Day, Timezone Day, Fully Booked Day, Eat All You Can Day, Coffee Shop Day, Matching Outfit Day, Postcard Making Day, Watch The Sunset Day, Hearts Day, Sing Me A Song Day and Palit Bag Day :)

So basically every month may gagawin kami to celebrate our love! :) Sabi niya mapapasubo daw siya sa Sing Me A Song day. Hahaha this ought to be good XP I'll provide more details on this pag naayos na namin :) And today's our 19th month anniversary :) Happy 19th, partner! I can't wait to see you na! I love you! <3

I finished reading Jodi Picoult's The Plain Truth. I wasn't able to abide by what I stated in my past entry. Once I got hold of last week's allowance, I immediately went to the nearest bookstore and bought 4 Picoult novels. Lol. I'm serious. You can ask Jay :) I bought Plain Truth, Second Glance, Perfect Match and Nineteen Minutes :) I'm reading it in that order and currently, I'm on Second Glance. Picoult's books are amazingly hard to resist. I didn't get to continue rereading New Moon. But I'm still with the werewolves. Ay, Switzerland pala. Lol.

New layout featuring The Beatles :) Oh, you just gotta love the Fab 4 <3

Well anway, gotta go. I'm having cramps. Nawala na ko sa mood magtype. Hahaha bye!

Jodi Picoult is best known for her captivating tales about thoughts, emotions and actions of real people. In My Sister's Keeper, she tells the story of how a family can be torn apart by the members' contradicting needs. It also shows a kind of love that transcends beyond human weaknesses.

Anna Fitzgerald was conceived for a specific purpose. She was genetically designed to be a perfect genetic match for her older sister, Kate, who is dying of leukemia. As early as birth, Anna has already been donating parts of her to Kate: bone marrow, blood, stem cells, you name it. As long as Kate needs it, Anna was always there to provide it with.

But when Anna turned 13, her sister now needs a kidney. She loves Kate with all her heart but Anna has had enough. She then hires Campbell, a lawyer, and sues her parents for denying her the rights to her own body. As the case reaches the court, things start falling apart for the Fitzgeralds. Their father, Brian, becomes torn between the conflicting needs of his children. Their mother, Sara, will do everything to hold the family together and keep Kate alive, whatever it takes. Their older brother Jesse becomes delinquent and rebellious due to the weight of his family's situation. As the trial eventually reaches the end, Anna now discovers who she really is and what it's like to stand up for herself.

Picoult, being the literary genius that she is, used several narrators in the novel. She gave the readers a glimpse of each of the characters' thoughts to understand them better but essentially made it even more painful in deciding who to sympathize with. Picoult definitely tackled this sensitive topic with grace, wit and surprisingly, humor. She managed to include funny and lighter moments which balances out the entire story. I think most of us might relate with Anna on different levels. She just might be a reflection of ourselves in more ways than we think.

"The only way I can fight for you is if you can prove to everyone that you can fight for yourself when I walk away." - Campbell to Anna, My Sister's Keeper

It started like this..
I'm on the brink of something beautiful
And I want to sing about it
But I don't know where to begin
Write it in a letter
But the words don't come out right
Trying to explain how nobody can do me like
You don't understand how helpless I can get
Since the day we met
Oh, can you feel it yet?
- Ready And Waiting To Fall

Did you know, what you were doing, did you know?
Did you know how you would move me well?
I don't really think so
But the night came down and swept us away
And the stars they seemed to paint the most elaborate scene today
- We're So Far Away

That blossomed into something more..
And by the way you brought me here
It makes me believe the best is still yet to come
And I don't want to leave

And if you'd be honest and say what you mean
You know I would promise I'd do anything
Because I know that without you I'm giving it away

You've introduced me to the moment
Oh but I'm looking to stay for good
You asked me to say forever
Well, you know that I would, I would do anything
- Giving it Away
Sometimes it may seem like..

The confidence you held in us is the rope we almost hung ourselves with
At times I wonder if we really took the steps to break right through it
I know that there were better days, but to see the light and to feel the rays
Life was always back and for and we were idling or making useless progress

It seems like yesterday we had the world our way
But some say we're heading for destruction.

I'll ask you "What in the world should we do?"
This light is green our break is through
Are we not trying or are we trying too hard?
- Sun

But then it still goes back to..
If all is said and done and over
If we don't have to we're not going to
Make the change, it's worth the try
What's broken can be fixed tonight
- Embers and Envelopes

I think that we've got what it takes to get this heart start beating again.
I think you're the only one who gets this entry. I'd just like you to know that you are, and always have been, the love of my life. Although there are times - especially recently - when it seems like everything's falling apart, I really appreciate your trying to keep it together. I'm glad neither of us had let go. Love is not all warm and fuzzy feelings. It can get ugly and painful sometimes, but as long as you share it with the person you feel most secure with, then there's nothing that you can't overcome. Thank you for being my hero. ILY.

Edward Cullen is the new Romeo Montague. I'm telling you, I can see him EVERYWHERE. He seriously invaded the blog entries, written journal, words, thoughts and dreams of every breathing (or rather, hyperventilating) female on the planet! It's insane. What has Stephenie Meyer done?? :)) I couldn't even begin to describe how agonizing it is for the guys. Impressing girls is already hard work as it is. Let alone being measured using the new Edward-o-meter. Poor guys. But then again, some of those XY chromosomes might be just as hooked to Meyer's vampire romance as we are. :P

Let's see.. What have I been up to lately?

I finished reading My Sister's Keeper last night. Maybe I'll just write a review about it on a different entry if I don't get too busy this coming week. I'm putting off my Picoult book-athon (?) for a moment because (1) I don't have the luxury to buy another book from her collection yet and (2) I can't find that particular novel of hers which I want to read next in any bookstore I've gone to. So maybe I'll just continue re-reading the Twilight saga. I'm currently on New Moon. Hello to that giddy giddy feeling I get because Jacob is there! <3 Sa inyo na si Edward. Jacob is mine! :))

And oh! Speaking of Jacob Black, I had an epiphany. Hey, don't laugh! I'm serious. Ready? Okay so Bella often referred to him as her "own personal sun", right? Not only because of the fact that he is literally warmer than room temperature, he always brings sunshine during Bella's darkest hours, cheering her up and filling the holes (although not completely) which Edward created. Well anyway, book 4 is called Breaking Dawn, right? Dawn is defined to be the twilight before sunrise. At this time of day, the sun is still below the horizon but almost peeking through as we can see its weak presence. Maybe that ought to tell us something about where Jacob's story is in the 4th book. After the dawn, it's gonna be sunrise. That might mean he's not going to die after all, right? :) Okay, Jacob Black fans, you can exhale now - all three of you. HAHAHA!

Oh! I got my ears pierced  twice last week :) Not actually both ears, just the left one. I don't know why I did it, really. Vanity, maybe? Lol. I guess it's just something I've always wanted to experience, that's all. And I think it looks fierce! XD Haha I miss Christian "Ferosh" Siriano! I wonder where he is now. He's probably making clothes for Victoria Beckham :)

Regarding school, we've already submitted the 1st chapter of the thesis proposal. Our topic is on greenstick fracture analysis through image processing. It's not yet final though, but right now that's our strongest option. As for other subjects, they're not too hectic right now. But I'm getting the feeling that they will demand for my attention soon and at the exact same time! Lol. I hope not.

Shoutouts:
Happy birthday, Jam Catapusan & Leo Galicha! (June 11th)
Happy birthday, Alona Alcanse! (June 14th)
Happy birthday, Patricia Demandante! (June 15th)

Happy Father's Day to the number one man in my life - Daddy! And of course, to Jay as well for giving me Chad :) ILY! And to all the fathers out there, too. :)

Okay so that's about all the blabbering I could handle for one day. Bye!

It's nearing a week now since I found out. But my ears still burn with fury whenever it would cross my mind. I couldn't believe how naive I had been - believing your words when it has lies written all over it. You made me feel that I could trust you. That you're a friend. That you want to help me. That you cared. But that was all an act, wasn't it? It was all part of your rotten plan. 

You used what you are as a decoy and tricked me into thinking that what I'm doing is in his best interests, and my own too. And the natural imbecile that I am, I fell for it. I ignored my gut feeling - although it was screaming and fighting for my attention - and told myself that you, of all people, cannot do such a shameful thing.

But that's where I was wrong.

You are just like them - only worse, but altogether branching from the same tree. You all pretend to be nice and harmless, but by the time you are in close proximity with the target, your fangs, horns and tail claw its way out as you finish off your prey. You all have the same blood running through your veins: that of deceit, selfishness and betrayal.

What hurts me the most is the fact that when I met you, I was at the point in my life where I actually believed I'm getting more confident and stronger than I have ever been. That I can do things on my own. And when I was getting close to finishing that few remaining steps to the other side, you burned the bridge and turned it into rubble. As if saying, "Hah. You wish."

And I started feeling insignificantly tiny again. All those things I've been trying to bury - fear, vulnerability, weakness - are crawling back to the surface, haunting me. Thanks to you.

Don't you dare tell me that you're only human. Because newsflash: WE ALL ARE.

Someday, I know I'll find the heart to forgive you. I'm not made of granite. But right now, just allow me to grieve. You owe me that much. And the rest, you owe to the Lord. Siya na ang bahala sa'yo.

I've finished reading The Tenth Circle yesterday. The reviews were right. It's definitely a remarkable tale which discusses the true meaning of the parent-child bond. There really is nothing parents won't do for their children. They would literally go to hell and back just to keep their child safe. Nothing can ever compare to that. Plus, the story is wrapped around a very controversial issue, which many of us are aware of but haven't really gotten a good look at. The Tenth Circle shows how a husband and wife, with secrets of their own, deal with the crisis plaguing their child, as well as themselves.

Jodi Picoult is definitely one heck of a storyteller. She writes with intricate detail, making the novel impossible to put down.  She broke out of the traditional storytelling scenario and incorporated artwork and illustrations with her narrative. She collaborated with Dustin Weaver, a very talented comic book artist, to produce a graphic novel that would give depth to the story. The result is a novel with a perfect weaving of artwork and narrative. Picoult's mind is pure genius.

Reading this book convinced me to continue rummaging through her growing list of published works. I guess I'm going to put off re-reading New Moon. I was just too caught up with how real Picoult's works are that I had to temporarily leave the green and rainy town of Forks (and La Push for that matter). Next on my Picoult list: My Sister's Keeper :)

According to Stephenie Meyer's official site, her next project would be Midnight Sun. For those of you who don't know yet, it's Twilight, told from Edward's perspective. Nothing new's going to happen, just loads of mesmerizing lines from the man we all daydream about. Oh, admit it! Hahaha. But to be perfectly honest, I wasn't exactly thrilled to hear about it. We all know Edward's a sweetheart. In fact, he's already drowned us with his captivating words on all 3 books. And then there's still Breaking Dawn. So Midnight Sun might be just.. I don't know, too redundant? Hahaha forgive me. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I hope Meyer would start writing the sequel to The Host instead! I really fell in love with this book and I think it truly deserves to be a series. It's better than Twilight. So you guys better check it out! But don't go looking for any traces of Edward or you'd be downright disappointed. Lol. Bottom line is, I believe The Host is the best story Meyer has told so far. Ending it as it is would be a total shame. It deserves more than just 600 pages. Who has read it? Don't you agree with me? Anyone?? Hahahaha

I was thinking of putting labels on all my entries.. But I haven't quite figured out how that entire thing works so I don't know, maybe not. And I don't really like my entries appearing on multiple labels. It would like, limit the things I could blog about in an entry, right? Okay so no labelling, then. Hahaha XD OC, I KNOW. SO JUST SHYADDAAAAP! :))

"Just because you didn't speak the facts out loud didn't erase their existence. Silence was just a quieter way to lie." -Jodi Picoult, The Tenth Circle

Sometimes, you make me want to believe that you're one.

I AM HYPERVENTILATING. I've just witnessed a clip of the first completed scene from the Twilight movie! It's a portion of the ballet studio scene where James is filming Bella, as Edward suddenly arrives. I must say that seeing it for the first time surely gave me this sudden rush of excitement which sent my stomach in endless circles. I can't believe I was watching the story I've grown to love slowly come to life - even for just roughly over a minute. And then, clouding the skies of my little happy place, impatience and apprehension suddenly stole the throne once I realized the clip was over. Before I prattle some more, I figured you might want to watch the clip yourself. You may do so by clicking here.

Okay so after watching it the first time (and calming down, of course), I played it again - but this time, comparing it against how I pictured that scene in my head while reading the book. The movie (or that scene particularly), I have to say, wasn't very much faithful to the book. Bella was supposed to be unconscious and bleeding to death when Edward arrived. Not staring at him frightened. And the stunts were a little flawed and unrealistic. I might be wrong, as I haven't seen the entire film yet but I do hope that the pivotal parts of the novel will be given an appropriate amount of emphasis in the film. I can't believe I'm gonna have to wait until January(!) to see the whole thing when I'm witnessing parts of it already as early as now. Argh. How frustrating.

I just found out about err.. something. Something I wished I never have found out at all. I can't figure out why I'm upset about it but I am. I so am. Para kasing sinasadya eh. Ugh. The nerve. Okay stop it, Chel. Enough. Just go back to Twilight. HAHAHA!!

I read Twilight again last weekend, and it still has that same damn effect on me like it had the first time! It still gets to me, though I already know what's going to happen. I'm excited to read New Moon again because the dog is there :) Lol. But I'll cease the Twilight nostalgia first and read something else written by someone else. Hahaha. It's Jodi Picoult's The Tenth Circle. I've heard some good reviews so I decided to check it out. I'll let you know once it's done. I'll probably obsess about it after I've finished reading it anyway. And then after that, New Moon! :)

Edward: I think your friends are angry with me for stealing you.

Bella: They’ll survive.

Edward: I may not give you back, though.

It's June, already! My, my. How fast time flies. And how slow at the same time because I cannot wait to get my hands on Meyer's latest masterpiece: Breaking Dawn, in all its black and hardbound glory. Just look at the cover! Doesn't it make you wonder how on earth does a few chess pieces relate to the most awaited conclusion of the star-crossed lovers Edward and Bella's story? And Jacob! What will happen to him? I hope he won't get killed or anything. It's bad enough that Bella's marrying someone else and almost every Twilight fan despises him. I really really hope Stephenie Meyer has planned something more for him than just a tragic demise or a mysterious disappearance/fleeing. :(

I haven't actually blogged about my Twilight fetish. I think I just mentioned it in passing on one entry. So, forgive me if it's spilling for a bit right now. I've been meaning to write an entry exclusively about it but I just couldn't seem to find the time. Here I go again, blaming time when it's really indolence taking its sweet toll.

KIKAY ALERT! (Or is it? Hahaha!) I've been wanting so bad to have my nails done but I can't find the color I want! It's frusrating! Okay so my color choice is a bit bizarre and you might be grossed out but I'll tell you anyway. Hahaha. I want something similar to the color of dried blood or pencil lead. Weirded out much? Haha you tell me. XD

I'm checking out mp3 players, hoping to find a good one that comes in a reasonable price. It doesn't have to be capable of playing videos or storing pictures -- just a regular mp3 player will be perfect. I want to get it for someone very special :)

Enough of the babbling. I'm sleepy. Got an 8am class tomorrow. Goodnight!