So here, new layout. I don't know why. I mean, I love the previous one but there's just a lot of things going through my mind and the next thing I know, I had gone mad in using Adobe Photoshop once again and thus, coming up with a cork board. Huh? I know that didn't make even the littlest of sense. Anyway, this is not finished yet, I guess. I don't really have a mental picture of what the entire thing is going to look like. I just want some outlet of emotions from a lot of stuff happening lately. Oh, the drama.

School's a bitch once again. BOO. And I can't even muster adequate energy and interest to actually deal with it. Grr. And we lost during the playoff today against ADMU. More boo.

My phone gave up on me. I've only had it for almost a year and I couldn't open it. :( Is that how bad I am in handling my stuff? :/ I hope not. Anyway, I got a new one the other day. I named her Flaky. :) I learned my lesson na, I'll take care of Flaky!

Jay and I celebrated our 10th month last Sunday. That's the only thing that made me happy this week.

Such a lame update. My apologies, I feel lame. LOL

Pressure! >___<

The first week of term 2 was okay. School work is just starting so I'm trying to control things as early as now by getting it done before things start to pile up. I hope I could manage. The burden was also lessened because there will only be two machine projects for the term. The rest would be exams and papers, I guess. I hope everything goes well. I reeaaaaally do.

Today's the DLSU-ADMU play off and I'm at home, watching it. The Batch Assembly provided a live feed at Gokongwei building for free but Jay has class and I needed to go home for the passport. Anyway, Jay's gonna come over after his class which is not until 5:50 pm O_O

A birthday shout out goes out to KIM PATRICK TORT (September 13)! I miss you, Mr. Valedictorian! :D I hope you're doing okay. I hope we could catch up sometime. Happy birthday! Godbless. :)

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LA SALLE WON! ANIMO! :D
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P.S. My entry title is just a hang over from my TREDTWO class earlier. Don't mind it. XD

I was told that I should always be strong. I should never let anyone get a glimpse of my weakness. I shouldn't break down. I must be tough and victorious in everything I do. That's what they keep on telling me. That's what they keep on hammering into my head.

Now, I'm beginning to realize that it might be the very reason why I didn't become that way. In fact, I became the exact contradiction. I grew weak, inadequate, and vulnerable. I do have my glorious my moments of triumph and victory. But when the soft breeze of life suddenly turns into a hurricane of hardships, I grumble in despair. I lose the ability to take control. I become helpless.

Why am I not allowed to commit mistakes?
Why am I not allowed to experience defeat?

They always make it seem like failure equates to disgrace.

But doesn't failure also mean opportunities to learn? Doesn't defeat make the taste of triumph a lot sweeter? Why wouldn't they ever let me embrace it?

It's just so perplexed how the people I'm supposed to be able to cry my heart out to are the very same people whom I'm hiding my tears from.

Today's the second day of term 2 but it's still the first meeting for some of my subjects. Hmm how did it go? Not quite good for my majors. I like my TREDTWO (Theology and Religious Education 2) professor. He speaks very well. But there are times when he speaks just a little too much though. Imagine, we discussed 3 house rules for an hour and a half. Wooooooord vomiiiiiiiiit O_O

A substitute professor showed up on my second class, which is NLAN-ST (New Programming Language for ST). He discussed the syllabus and the never-ending machine project.

INTROSE (Introduction to Software Engineering) was worse. We found out that the machine project occupies a whopping 75% of our final grade. How lovely is that? Ugh.

Even Jay is going to experience a hard time on is majors. (USAENGG, BISPROC, DATABAS) Looks like this is really really really going to be one rough term. I swear I'm gonna need that Christmas break so baaaaaaad. LOL second day palang Christmas break na agad amf. Wahahaaa!

Haaaaaay.. Seems like stress is welcoming me back into its lovely arms once again.




Goodluck to all of us.. especially Erap. Okayanglabonun.

I love this day! :D But it's not because it's the first day of term 2, of course. I just love it. Hehe. Anyway, Jay and I left my house at 7-ish. We had breakfast before going to our first class. We're classmates, btw :D We arrived at school at 8am, just in time for our first class, SCIMATP (Physics). Our prof was err.. okay.

Next class was COMSORG (Computer Systems Organization) which bored me as well because our professor already started with the lesson since most of us have already been his students last term. Di na daw kailangan ng orientation Oh well.

Last class was HUMALIT (Introduction to Literature). I thought we were going to write poems, sonnets or haikus and all those literary stuff but I was wrong. Instead we are going to assess and scrutinize different literary works of famous writers. Well, I hope it would still be a fun class. It is, after all, literature. :)

After class, Benny and Jude treated (and eventually left LOL) us in KFC. Lotsaaaaa food. I didn't know they had a bucket THAT big. Hahaa! We all felt full afterwards pero ang dami pa ring natira. Haha. Anyway, thanks benny for the treeeeeeeat! :D

Oh yeah, Jay brought his digicam with him because he was gonna show me the pictures he took during his friend's debut. And maaaaaaaaaaan, the camera is love! 10 megapixels, baby! LOL So malamang I camwhored bigtime. But Jay was the one who took all the photos. All I did was smile and pose. Nyahahahaaaa XD I loooooooove it!

After enrollment, Jay and I went home and watched Hairspraaaaaaaaaaaay XD We, or rather I, camwhore some more. :P Hon, "not no more you don't!" Hahahaaaaa! :D

And now I'm watching Willy Wonka while typing this entry. Love this day!

BIRTHDAY GREETINGS!
Happy birthday, Miles! (Sep 5) Miss na kita! Sus, sipain kita eh!
Happy birthday, Jude! (Sep 8)
Happy birthday, Benny! (Sep 8)

Ayun lang. :)

1. I don't have tickets to the DLSU-ADMU game today.
2. Tomorrow is the start of second term. I still don't want to go to school yet.
3. I was stuck at home by myself.
4. I am such an insecure litol girl. T_T
5. Fake. Fake. FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAKE. :(

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6. DLSU lost.
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My week-long(!!!) term break is almost over and it's upsetting because I didn't even get to accomplish half of the things written in my term break to-do list. Sniff sniff. Anyway, this is what happened during the term break so far.

MONDAY - I spent the day worrying about the course card distribution. Jay came over and we watched tv all day. He kept calming me down and wiping my sweaty palms (eeww) dry.

TUESDAY - Got my grades.. and I freaking passed! It really was a hell term especially with my majors. Here are my grades. It's really not something to boast about but I'm very very VERY happy with what I got. Life in CCS is brutal. Surviving 4 terms in it is already an achievement as precious as chocnut dipped in vanilla ice cream with colored sprinkles on top! :D

P.S. I got what I aimed for in ANMATH2. :D It's not 4.0-ish but I worked for it! Take that, Anita Ong! Ha! :D LOL

WEDNESDAY - I cannot remember what I did LOL

THURSDAY - DFA. It was really tiring. One employee there even commented that I don't look like a 17-year-old. Grrr do I really look that old? O_O Jay and I bought RAM for Nutty! :D

FRIDAY - Went to school to enroll, and then Glorietta after to get the RAM installed. :) Went home after, and Jay finished the banner he was doing to help my mom out. :)

UPDATES. Finals was very very very cruel. I'm telling you, the questions were mentally harmful. Just thinking about it makes my head hurt. Anyway, our week-long term break officially started last Saturday but until now I still can't feel its vibe. I don't feel relaxed at all. Having to wait for my grades is nerve-wracking. Oh please grant our professors the values of compassion and sympathy in handling our grades. Okaythisisfoolishi'mgonnashutupnow.

Jay and I watched The Simpsons Movie last Friday via Nutty. XD Okay I know I'm such loser for not watching it on the big screen but I was too caught up with school work. Well anyway, while we were watching it, Jay was laughing at me! He said he found it funny that instead of laughing at Homer, I actually pitied him for poking his eye with a hammer. LOL. Haha onga noh eh out of his usual stupidity naman yon. XD Sorry na, nagulat lang naman ako eh. Hahaha. Anyhow, the movie was great. And I downloaded it from the net. Hahahaaa!

Happy birthday, Meg! (Aug 30) I miss you so you better be back here for Christmas! LOL I hope you had a good one. Mwah! :)

Happy birthday, Crae! (Sep 1) Sorry I couldn't make it. I miss hanging out with you and shobe. :)

I want something to do! Me bumming around is not doing any good because it just drifts my mind into thinking about September 4. Oh September 4. I wish I could find a way to stop you from happening. I'm very anxious to know my grades but I'm scared as well. A HUMONGOUS FAT SIGH. I just want to get through September 4 alive. This is too much. Having to wait for it is already giving me an enormous amount of punishment. T_T Be gentle, September 4.