We had a job fair in school last week. It was particularly for us, incoming 3rd year Computer Science students specializing in Software Technology, who are about to have our internship this summer. There were companies like CAI-STA, Procter & Gamble, Orange & Bronze, Pointwest, PDC, & Accenture who set up booths for inquiry and submission of resumes and application forms. Also, each company had the chance to present to us an overview of how the work would be like in their respective companies if they hire us -- as an intern and as an actual employee.

To be truthful, I am thrilled about the fact that I would soon be exposed to an actual working environment and will have the chance to prove myself effective in the IT world. I would also be able to apply all the knowledge and skills I have learned from the 6 terms I've spent in school. And I would be able to assess if I am fit for this career and if I will last in this industry.

On the other hand, while one half of me feels all jittery and excited about my internship, the other feels all lonesome and troubled. What if's are starting to pile up in my itsy bitsy head. What if I mess up? What if my boss and/or co-workers didn't like me? What if I didn't make a good impression? What if I can't do what they asked me? OR WORSE.. What if I didn't get hired by any company AT ALL??

And then it hit me. This is not a joke anymore. Play time's long gone and it's time to get serious. We're talking about work and real jobs here now. There should be absolutely no room for fun and games. This internship is going to predict how my future would be like. I can't just relax and take things easy. I must work hard and put my heart into everything I'm gonna be doing. No room for mistakes and erasures. I cannot afford even a single ink blot on the paper.

Here I go, being too hard on myself again. I really should stop hitting my head with a hammer shouldn't I?

..so here are just 5 things I could share for now :)

1. Second year, Term 3 has started last January 7th. The 1.5-hour class scheme has officially started. And personally, although I have only 4 days of classes every week, I'd still prefer the regular Monday-Friday schedule. Kasi ngayon, my classes are all in the afternoon. My last class ends at 4:10pm everyday. Feeling ko ang unproductive ko pag ganun kasi by the time I get out of school, the day is about to end. Unlike last term, I'm free na by 1pm palang. Sometimes 11:30 pa. Eh ang dami ko pang majors this term. Plus other issues pa. Ang pinakamasaklap pa, conflict sched namin ni Jay :( Whoo. Must cope and manage time wisely.

2. I was in Hong Kong from the 11th until the 13th to celebrate my birthday with my family. Sobrang fun pero nakakapagod din at the same time. Parang lagi kaming nagmamadali kasi we have to fit everything in 3 days. Nevertheless, it was quite an experience. Thanks to my family for that wonderful birthday gift :) My favorite was the Victoria Peak. Luck just wasn't with us when we went there because the fog was too thick and we couldn't see the city lights. But the place, minus the fog of course, is very, very romantic.

3. Sweeney Todd - Ang fabulous nitong movie na to. At first I couldn't imagine why it was given an R-18 rating because well, it's just a musical. :)) But heck, ang morbid pala niya. Parang Happy Tree Friends! I love it! :)) And yung storyline din maganda :) Galing galing.. Another successful film by the Tim Burton-Johnny Depp tandem. LOVE:)

4. I was given an opportunity to be used in God's work. Honestly, it scares me. But I want to give it a try. I don't know. Pinagppray ko pa kung talagang para sakin. Sabi nga nila, opportunities like this don't come around too often so it might be a shame if I pass on the chance eh andyan na nga sa harap ko, kukunin ko nalang. But I still can't decide. I really want to know for sure if it's what God wants for me. I'm still praying for it. In Jesus' name..

5. LOST - I am currently hooked on this show. I started watching it last Christmas vacation when Jay was in U.S. I haven't finished the first season pa because busy din ako nung Christmas eh. Pero it's fun to watch:) It has a different feel to it, unlike the other shows na puro love story and all. Ito sci-fi naman :D Also, interesting din yung story niya. Haha so yun. Hopefully I can finish it before they release a 4th season. Omayshemay how am I gonna do that?? Ohwell.

I'd love to blab some more but I must go now. I still have to study THEOCOM for a serious test tomorrow. I'll try to update more often from now on (here I go again LOL) Well anyway, goodnight!

I know it's a little late for a year-ender entry, but what the heck, I was busy. :P So I'm gonna still write one anyway now that I have quite a few time in my hands.

This time, my year-ender entry will not contain the events that made my 2007 a fun year. Rather, I would like to show gratitude to the people who made it happen :)

First of all, to GOD. Throughout the year, I can definitey say that He really didn't leave me. I have made tough decisions spiritually, but despite everyone thinking that the choices I made were wrong, GOD thought otherwise. He stayed by my side and made felt His presence to me all the time. People might not understand but as long as GOD does, it's more than enough for me.

To all my friends, for simply staying. Trust me, I have had my share of people storming out of my life and so it meant a lot that there were some who stood by me no matter what. We don't get to hang out and be with each other as often as before but the friendship, it's still there. It does not depend on how often we see each other or how many laughters shared but it's how secure our friendship is that when something ugly happened to either one, the other WILL BE THERE. No second thoughts.

To my sister Sarah, for not giving up on me. I am really lucky to have someone like you. Although you have friends of your own now and they probably know you more than I do, you never took me for granted. You still treat me as someone significant. Thank you for staying with me. I hope that this 2008, our friendship would grow deeper. I love you, sis!

To Jay, my better half <3, this year wouldn't be that meaningful without you. Looking back at the past year, a lot of my most cherished moments were shared with you. Before you came, I was a mess. I wrapped myself in anger and gloom which isolated me from.. well, from me. Almost everyone gave up on me. I was hopeless. But then you came and just.. made me stop hating. It's like you unlocked the door that's keeping me away from who I really am. You used to say that my blog is like a series of codes which you can't stop deciphering. Well what can I say, you got me all figured out now. And I love how it feels. Thank you for giving me this opportunity. No one has ever made me feel that way ever before. I love you so much.

To my family, who always does everything to provide me with everything I need. They have loved me unconditionally and made sacrifices for me. Although there are times when I mess up and disappoint them, they never made me feel like I owe them something. I realized that it's me who's pressuring myself to impress them. It's ike I want to them to be proud of me so that I can assure myself that somehow, I deserve the things they're giving me. I should really learn not to be too hard on myself anymore because I know that my family loves me for who I am, not who I'm trying to be.

K so nagmukha namang thank you speech sa famas yung year-ender entry ko XD But looking at my 2007, it's way waaaaay better than any famas award :P (Or maybe because I'm not into acting hahaa)