Ack. The cold is finally starting to sink in. Not only because of the holidays, but more importantly, it's because I don't have MY someone to spend the holidays with. Why is that, you ask? It's because MY someone is not here. He's out there somewhere with his family, and I won't be able to see him again for the entire vacation. He's going to be back on January na. It's pathetic to be mourning about it, I know. But trust me, I've tried so hard not to dwell on it, but it's really not something you can just look past at. This is our 2nd christmas as a couple but neither of those christmases were actually spent together. Okay okay. I should really stop looking at the black dots on the paper. What's more important is that he's gonna be back home to me soon, right?

Anyway, I just got my course cards yesterday. And thankfully, I passed all my subjects :) I'm already done with half of my college journey and hopefully I will survive the other half as well.

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To: Someone I owe so much

I'm really sorry. No matter how much you say that it wasn't, it still really is my fault. Kahit sinasabi mo na hindi ka galit at okay lang sa'yo yung nangyari, I can still tell na masama pa rin ang loob mo. I couldn't blame you, really. You have all the right to be upset. Let alone mad at me. You don't know how much I hate myself for what happened. I know that no matter what I do, it won't change what already happened. If I just could, believe me I would. I should have listened to you. I was so stubborn and I even got mad at you for doubting me. But in the end, your doubts were right. You see, I'm not that great after all. I'm really, really sorry. I love you.

From: ME