This past week has been really busy, that I don't even have time to do the things I planned on doing :( I'm so tired every day that when I go back to my room all I want to do is take off my shoes and doze off. There are lots of things to do around the house especially at this time of year and so I thought my family could use an extra pair of hands. So I made myself useful and it's been fun but it's tiring as well. I don't even get to read the books I plan on reading because by the time I'm lying on my bed, my eyes are already begging to be shut.

But nevertheless, it has been fun. It's what keeps me from going insane from missing Jayjay so much. I hope he's having fun, too. We weren't able to talk to each other during the peak of the holidays (24th and 25th) because we both have family commitments and cannot find the time to chat and greet each other merry christmas. So this morning, I was really really overwhelmed when I saw him online I almost fell off my chair! We missed each other so much that we talked (err, chatted) for 4 hours! But I still feel that it wasn't enough. We were forced to log off though because he still has to get some sleep. I enjoyed our conversation, honey! I can't wait to have you back here with me! I love you!

Just a little update before I call it a day :) Goodnight!

1. iPod earphones - I broke mine because I, as naive *EHEMstupidEHEM* as I have always been, have the habit of putting my iPod in my bag. And this bag, which I often use for school, apparently has magnets everywhere. So my earphones got whacked and I've got nothing to use. I want the classic one. Not the new one that Apple makes these days. Mas madaling masira yun e.

2. Philippa Gregory's The Queen's Fool - This is the sequel to Gregory's beautiful masterpiece, The Other Boleyn Girl. I don't know why but I became so fascinated with England's royalties. Especially King Henry's life. Oh well. Must get my hands on that book. LOL

3. COMPLETE 2nd Season of Heroes on DVD - I bought one a few weeks ago but it's only up to the 5th episode. Grrrrr. I want this so bad. I'm dying to know what happened next! Hahaha

4. A fantabulous laptop bag - Ang boring kasi nung ginagamit ko ngayon eh. Madami ren sa school na katulad nung akin yung bag so baka alam mo na, magkapalit. Wahahaha reasons. Okay fine, I'm busted. I just want a stylish one, okay? Hahahaaaaa

5. 2008 Planner - this has already been scratched off my list, thanks to my honey :) I love youuuuuuuu!

6. A phone call from Jay - Impossible? I hope not. I've been trying to stay online for as long as I can because he might be online as well. That's our only means of communication, unless he would be able to call me. Hay I miss him so much. It's good to know that he's been having fun and been going to lots of places. At least I have something to tell myself whenever I get sad, which is probably all the time. Hehe.

7. Dad - He's gone for 4 months now. His trips usually last for 2-3 months. So he seriously needs to come home. And he will :) On the 22nd or 23rd. Yeeeyy!

Okay, apparently that's all I can think of from the top of my head :) I'll just update when I think of things to add. Hahaha as if :)

Anyhoo, goodnight!

Ack. The cold is finally starting to sink in. Not only because of the holidays, but more importantly, it's because I don't have MY someone to spend the holidays with. Why is that, you ask? It's because MY someone is not here. He's out there somewhere with his family, and I won't be able to see him again for the entire vacation. He's going to be back on January na. It's pathetic to be mourning about it, I know. But trust me, I've tried so hard not to dwell on it, but it's really not something you can just look past at. This is our 2nd christmas as a couple but neither of those christmases were actually spent together. Okay okay. I should really stop looking at the black dots on the paper. What's more important is that he's gonna be back home to me soon, right?

Anyway, I just got my course cards yesterday. And thankfully, I passed all my subjects :) I'm already done with half of my college journey and hopefully I will survive the other half as well.

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To: Someone I owe so much

I'm really sorry. No matter how much you say that it wasn't, it still really is my fault. Kahit sinasabi mo na hindi ka galit at okay lang sa'yo yung nangyari, I can still tell na masama pa rin ang loob mo. I couldn't blame you, really. You have all the right to be upset. Let alone mad at me. You don't know how much I hate myself for what happened. I know that no matter what I do, it won't change what already happened. If I just could, believe me I would. I should have listened to you. I was so stubborn and I even got mad at you for doubting me. But in the end, your doubts were right. You see, I'm not that great after all. I'm really, really sorry. I love you.

From: ME

The big INTROSE software is over. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. It's the subject that has been eating up most of my time these past weeks. It caused me an unimaginable amount of stress. And now that it's done, I'm happy, ofcourse. Because I won't have to stay up late anymore when my body wants to sleep already. Because I won't have to formulate algorithms in my head on how to fix the software bugs. Because I won't get to harass Nutty with lines and lines of programming codes anymore. Because my other subjects won't suffer anymore due to lack of attention given because INTROSE STOLE IT. Because I can finally think of MYSELF, and do what I WANT. Okay, not really. because there's still finals week and other majors to think of. But INTROSE has really been a major burden. And I'm just happy because I got through it. Now I can focus better on my other subjects, especially the ones that suffered big time because I wasn't able to make time for it since INTROSE TOOK IT ALL. Damn, INTROSE. If you were just alive and walking, I'd crush you to pieces. You're a major pain in the ass. But I got through with you in one freaking piece. So I only have 2 words for you: TAKE THAT. XD

Okay so I may sound like a freaking dork for blogging about my school works in that manner. But hey. First of all, this is my blog so I can talk about monkeys, aliens or whatnots for all you care. (If there's even a you reading this) And second, these thoughts have long been trapped in my head. What better (and easier) way to let it loose than to blog about it, right?

RANT ALERT.

Weeks have passed and you didn't hear a thing from me. Although every part of me wants to scream and get mad, I didn't. I held back my anger and gave you the benefit of the doubt. Why? Because I know you're not like that. But I was wrong. DEAD WRONG. You are like that. Moreover, you twist things to your advantage. And now, you're trying to redeem yourself by "making up" for it. Well sorry to burst your bubble but the damage has been done. You cannot rewind things or undo the damage. I'm now on the process of mending it but this time, it will be sturdier, and repellant to people like you. And besides, it's over now. You got what you wanted out of it. Out of ME. I hope you're happy.

RANT OVER.

Whooo. XD