Okay, I know I already said goodbye for the night and that I'm going back to study some more but I just had to blog about this!

Me: Are you my knight in shining armor? Are you gonna carry me to your castle where we could live happily ever after?
Him: yeah i can be all that and more
Him: im also the knight who will cook you breakfast
Him: the knight that will feed the kids
Him: the knight that will try to be a joker to make u laugh
Him: the knight that will protect you from anything and anyone
Him: the knight that will give you ur happily ever after...
Him: the knight that will save you from loneliness
Him: the knight of your dreams is me


-- OKAY. THIS IS THE MOST HEARTMELTING PART! --


Him: the knight that has no armor, no castle to boast about, and a knight that cannot assure his princess that everyday would be a happily ever after.
Him: but one thing is for sure this knight loves the princess so much, and will try his best at making every day
Him: as happy as a story book ending

I was left speechless.

But now I know (and I'm sure!) that we really can make it. I love you, my prince! <3

I studied INTROAI last night and my mind didn't absorb a thing! Is it really because of my continuously diminishing literacy level or is it because the subject is just really that.. err, gruelling? IDK. God knows how bad I want to get this over with. Now, I'm making an attempt (haha) to study INTRODB, which is gory as well but not as hardcore as INTROAI. Waaaa I have to make all of these fit in my head. O_O

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These past few days have been so harsh for me and Jay. It really raised a lot of complications in our relationship. But despite of that, it never occurred to me to stop seeing him and just get out of the relationship. It only just made me strive harder to make the relationship work and last. And I'm very thankful that he feels the same way. I love you, honey. We can make it. Our hands have always been meant to hold each other. I love you more than ever.

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I want to share this quote to everyone. I hope it would inspire you as much as it inspired me (or even more). :)

Most people fail at whatever they attempt because of an undecided heart. Should I? Should I not? Go forward? Go back? Success requires the emotional balance of a committed heart. When confronted with a challenge, the committed heart will search for a solution. The undecided heart searches for an escape.

Okay, back to reality. Must. Study. Some. More.

It was you who my heart has been looking for all this time. Despite everything we have been going through, here we are, holding each other's hands tighter than ever. The past 9 months of my life have been a blessing because of you. Let's hold on tighter. I love you so much!

My August 19 thoughts..
Did I actually stop blogging for 2 full months? Woah. I still can't believe that it really has been THAT long. I have been making up over the weekend for my days and days of lack of decent sleep. It's nice to sleep and bum around! I haven't done that in long while. When everything gets so stressed out, that's when you realize the value of sleep and relaxation. My body almost gave up on me! Thank God the submission of all the machine projects is done. Next thing to rattle and get nervous about? Project demo. Ugh. : /

My August 21 thoughts..
I missed Jay! We didn't have classes yesterday so we were unable to see each other. I'm so glad I got to feel his warm hugs again! <3

Today..
Jay and I watched Evan Almighty. The movie was sweet! But having to watch it with my love is sweetuurrrr :)

That is the only reason why I could smile today. Everything else is just craaaaap. I just don't get the fact that you -- geez, you of all people -- would spit out hurtful words like that. I thought I could trust you. Fcuk, I actually trusted you! I told you everything because I thought you understand me. But you don't. You're just as narrow-minded as they all are. Ugh.Thanks for nothing.

Tomorrow we'll be having our project demo for INTRODB. Great. More crap.

DAHIL WALA ULIT PASOK, MAG-UUPDATE AKO. (HUH?)

I have been on the longest blog break! I'm back now although I don't guarrantee that I'll be able to update regularly. Academic work has been consuming my time. It's just now that I happen to find the chance to type something which school doesn't require and it feels very rewarding (although I will still be talking about school since that's mostly what occupies my hours. Oh how I wish school won't slap me with academic work too hard anymore). This is totally going to be random, so forgive my inconsistency.

1. Two more agonizing weeks and 2nd year, term 1 is finally over. But before that, I have to meet a lot of deadlines. Programs here, papers there. *sigh* College is stressful, at least for me it is. It even affects my health already. I just hope that I could still hold things together long enough until these 2 weeks are over. And I also do hope that all the hard work (and torment!) will pay off.

2. I have no social life anymore. I mean, all that ever occupies my time is related with school. If Jay doesn't study in DLSU, maybe we'll barely see each other too. :( I'm just glad and thankful that my friends still check up on me despite me not reaching out. I'm sorry guys. Miss na miss ko na kayo! You really are my true friends! <3

3. Our block, S20, ranked 2nd runner-up in the Catch2T10 Interblock! Congratulations, guys!

courtesy of our block manager, Pam :)

4. My dad went home and left for work again just last week. I haven't told him yet about Jay. Heeeelp! :( I'll blog all about it when I have time. IF I have time. Huhuhu..

Okay I feel so flushed out and I forgot what to type here. Need. Some. Rest.